Just · Another · Stupid · Day

well me and Gloria and i just turned 3 months yesterday, and i must say they have been the best 3 months of my life! i love her so much i mean Ive never been happier :D that's all i wanted to say so peace out bitches!!!

P.S. HAPPY BIRTHDAY FUCKIN DOLLY!! YOU BETTER GET FUCKIN DRUNK AND PASS OUT SOMEWHERE!!

hmmm well lets see there has been so much that has happened since the last time i wrote in this thing that its not even funny! well anyway the day after my last entree on this thing something happened, well i made up my mind about which girl i wanted to be with and lets just say that i am currently a taken man! oh em gee you guys don't understand how much i care for this girl! its so unreal, we both care for each other so much its unbelievable. I'm so happy, i mean we have our occasional arguments but what couple doesn't? our arguments are usually about the stupidest things but i mean we always manage to work everything out. I'm the happiest I've ever been, there is only one problem or i mean i really wouldn't call it a problem but i dunno shes just very jealous and shes always saying that i shouldn't be with her and that i deserve someone else which is the stupidest thing I've ever heard. i love this girl and i wanna be with her but shes always saying that shit so i dunno what to do we've talked about it before but i dunno so yeah...well anyway its gonna be our 2 month anniversary this Wednesday so I'm looking forward to that! well i guess that's about it for now so i guess peace out!!

damn man its been forever! well anyway i guess the only time i really write in this thing is when i have something to vent out, or whenever i just wanna write about my life experiences to get shit off my mind and maybe feel a little better. well anyway a lot has happened since the last time i wrote in this thing. school is going so and so I'm really stressed about my cal 2 class, i fucking hate it. if i wanna pass i have to do good on the quizzes and tests. it sucks because not only is the class fucking hard, but the failure rate of it is 7/10 which is about 70%. I'm gonna be fucking pissed if i don't pass. but i guess you can say that's not whats really on my mind at the moment. i guess you can say I'm stuck between to girls, and that situation really sucks. i recently got really close to one of my friends and i started having feelings for her. i can tell she really cares for me, because she told me, but i dunno its hard to explain. i would love to be with someone like that but it just isn't that easy. on the other hand with this other girl, I've liked her ever since the first time i met her, and i dunno but i cant really read her, i cant tell how she feels. whenever we hang out we have so much fun and its a blast. i was kinda seeing one of them i guess you can say, the one that was a friend first and i started liking, but i told her that i couldn't do that right now because I'm so damn confused and that i needed to figure out what to do. i have an idea on what i must do, i have to see what they both have to offer, kinda like playing my cards in a poker game. I'm still not sure if one likes me but i just have 2 see, i know what i can have with one of them, so i want to see if anything can happen with the other, i dunno if that makes sense. i dunno i feel like that's what i have 2 do, and that's probably what ill end up doing, so i dunno if anyone of you guys reads this maybe you can tell me your opinion, after all it is my decision and I'm the only one that can pick so don't be afraid to tell me what you really think. ok well i guess that's it peace out!

hmmm well this week really wasn't that bad, it was actually pretty good especially wed :D. ha ha as you guys can guess i hung out with d. yeah i mean it was just an awesome day, we hung out at school during our break, and then after i practiced with the new band i went to go say hi at work and after she got off she called me and we talked for a bit, yeah it was great :D. hmmm other than that nothing really exciting happened ecxept for maybe the soma show on friday. it was a good show, i always love seeing soma! i mean old soma! with tom will always be my fav, but i still love their new stuff. hmmmmm yeah that's pretty much all i did that was exciting this week but yeah this week is gonna suck, i have so many exams and quizzes coming up its not even funny! but yeah I'm out peace out bitches...

oh yeah so alot has happened over i dunno the past week or 2? yeah well anyway yeah i guess ill start with the band matter first, yeah theres no more concordia awaits, we broke up. i had already quit once because of gabe, but went back because of dante, rich and the sheer fact that my equipment was just laying there, and needless to say gabe did it again. this time though he made dante quit, and theres no way i was gonna stay with just gabe, smiley is cool but nah. but do not fret because me, dante, rich and yes jorge! from PA and old school Concordia Awaits are gonna start a new project. all we need right now is a singer so if you know of anybody who can scream just let me know and have him contact me. im so fucking excited man, its gonna be fucking sic no more gabe trying to control everything and shit.

on another im still confused with d. i mean i did something like super spontaneous and maybe even idiotic. but i guess ill start at the beginning. hmmmmmm about a week ago we had a show with Concordia Awaits, and like she really wanted d to go but she didnt have a ride. so like she ended up calling all her friends to see if someone would go with her and she did. so like she shows up with like i dunno 4 guys and i was like ummmm ok but then she tells me that she called one and like 3 more ended up going. but i dunno like they ended uo sitting somewhere else to where me and my friends were, but she was all like "are you gonna sit with us" and like i ended up sitting with her and we flirted and everything the whole time she was there. i dunno it just seemed like i didnt have to worry much about her guy friends because like if she was with one of them or something she wouldnt of sat like with me and payed all that attention to me you know? and like i dunno we were having a good time and everything until she got kicked out of the place and she got kicked out because she got caught drinking, yeah that sucked so much ass. i didnt know what to do because i really didnt want her to leave you know? so yeah on to the idiotic thing i did, and its all thanks to damn myspace. well anyway like a couple of day ago she posted up on of those surveys that like ask shit like "do you think im cute, gorgeous, do you have a crush on me, would you kiss me, be my b/f" shit like that and me being a pendejo filled it out! i dunno but most of my answers were like not direct but you could kinda assume i liked her you know? but like i dunno i pretty much told her i liked her in the stupid thing, so like i dunno now. not only that but she filled mine out, she did the same for me and like i dunno because she left like the ones like would you be my b/f or g/f out, those kinda questions. but like on the others she seemed to be like trying to be funny, kinda like flirting on them you know. but like i really dont know because leaving some of the questions blank could mean one of 2 things either she likes me and like she wantes to keep me guessing, or she doesnt and she doesnt want to like hurt me or whatever. if it were up to me like i rather her tell me you know but yeah. i dont know what to do, i was thinking about asking her out on a date and seeing what happens but like yeah i dunno, its harder said than done ha ha. yeah well im done...damn this shit is long but anyway peace out!

well lets see, nothing much has really happened since i last updated. well actually no im lying Concordia Awaits played a show at kristophs coffee, last weekend and i went to the comic strip yesterday not to mention all the stupid ass quizzes and shit i had to take for school. yeah but that really isnt the problem i guess, the show was awesome though no complaints there. well anyway lets get to the part were i now write about how im so damn fucking confused ha ha. but yeah im really confused right now, and its all due to my inability to read girls that i have feelings for. yes well see i have like the biggest crush on this girl, we are always flirting and everything but like i cannot read her. i know she got out of a long realationship months ago, this was before i met her which was hmmm maybe about 6 months ago, and yeah she still has feelings for her ex. how do i know this you ask? well some she sort of told me and the other i kind of found out through myspace, fucking myspace yeah...well anyway she had told me that she broke up with him, she really didnt say why. so a while ago she posted a blog on myspace with lyrics from a song which pretty much said, i still love you but you better move on, so i dunno this was maybe like 2-3 weeks ago. but recently like i dunno i feel like shes been paying a bit more attention to me. like last week she went to my show, and like i dunno but her parents are really strict so they werent gonna let her, but they eventually did because the only way she cold go was if she took her little bro and she did. i mean thats a good sign right? and like we were supposed to have a show this friday at the hookah bar but it got cancelled, and i found out that she was gonna go and even gonna take one of her friends which is a girl i might add ha ha. since we didnt have the show i ended up inviting her to go with me, gloria, zilthai, adrian, and natalie to the comic strip and she ended up going. i was surprised because she had to work yesterday night and didnt get off until 10, that plus as ive said before her parents are really strict. not only that but she had to drive all the way to the west side, just so she could go for an hour because she had to be home at 12:30 and the show didnt start until 11. so like i dunno but my friend gloria was saying that she has a gut feeling she likes me because of of how shes been acting but i dunno. but yeah im fucking confused...i guess im done peace out!

yeah well lets see life is really stressful and sort of sucky right now. school is yeah a shitload of reading and h/w every night, that plus im getting sick so i feel like knocking out, but yeah i cant because i have a shitload of h/w to do.

so valentines day is coming up and well, it looks like i shall be alone on that day once again because the girl i wanted to ask to be my valentine is really hard to get a hold of and i dunno but im beginning to think that maybe shes either a)ignoring me or b) hasnt had much time to talk or do anything because she has 2 jobs + is going to school full time...so i dunno, i guess its just that i havent seen her or had real conversation with her for about a week. did you guys know that ive never had a real valentine? like an actual date with a girl on valentines day, yeah kinda sad really but meh its just like any other day of the year.

things with the band have actually been going pretty good, well except for the fact that i cant stand gabe most of the time ha ha but yeah. speaking of the band we have a show this saturday! its gonna be at kristophs coffee shop on lee trevino next to all that music, and its with 2 more bands, scenic drive and i dont remember the other one ha ha but the show starts at 8 and its free!! yes i said free!! so everyone go!!

ha ha i guess thats it for right now, i dunno what else 2 write about so take care and peace out!!

hmmm well first and foremost i have to say happy new year!! ha ha yeah sorry i know its a little late but i havent been on here in a while....hmmmm well lets c where should i start?i spent most of my break working just so i could lose my job the day before school started...yeah its not like i got fired or anything but they closed the place down. it pisses me off because they didnt tell anyone, we all just walked in sunday and they told us that would be the last day for romas. so yeah im job less and it sucks...anyone has any hook ups anywhere? ha ha its a bitch to get a job without a hook up...yeah well anyway other than that ive been pretty ok. the band is doing pretty good man i really like our new songs you guys should check them out on our myspace www.myspace.com/concordiaawaits we have the new version of carpe diem and one of our newer songs hula hoop drool ha ha yeah ask dante why we named it that. my love life...wait what love life? ha ha j/k well anyways yeah im still single but im interested in someone which i get to hang out with alot more this semester!!! ha ha yeah man shes awesome im gonna ask her to be my valentine but i dunno how/when to do it because i dont want to ask 2 soon and i dont want to wait 2 long because someone else might ask her so yeah any ideas when and how i can ask her? ha ha yeah hmmmm what am i missing oh yeah school man damn shit its gonna suck this semester...sort of ha ha yeah except for the part were i chill with Di more ;) but seriously im taking Call II, Intro to Mechanics, Political Science 2311, and Psychology 1311, but meh i think ill get through it. at least i have my friend adrian in most of them or should i say all of my classes ha ha ha...well i guess thats about it i dunno what to write about know but ill try to update more often aight guys peace out!!!

P.S. i saw underworld evolution today and i might say it kicked ass man!! i love kate beckinsale!!

well lets c i really havent been up up to much lately, im just really really sick, its sad. this past week has been hell, im super congested and ive been having fever everyday since monday night. it got so bad that i even had to go to the emergency room monday night and even had to go to the doctor again this morning. so yeah hopefully ill get better soon...well anyway i still have my little crush ha ha but yeah its been 2 weeks since ive seen her. but yeah hopefully this week i will :). on another note im really considering going back to the band, i dunno but i really miss playing shows and shit like that. but who knows im still not sure so yeah. so my b-day is coming up guys so you better be saving your money! ha ha well i dunno what else to write about, peace out..........

so lets see nothing much has really happened although i am shitting bricks because i have a cal and engineering exam tomorrow....so yeah thats gonna suck so yeah on another note i am actually pretty happy right now ha ha ha i may be exaggerating a bit but i think i have a crush :o ha ha ha yes ;) and i hung out with her this past friday morning. shes really cool but yeah well see what happens ha ha i dont wanna push for anything yet ha ha ha but yeah hopefully ill get to see a lot more of her ha ha so yeah i dunno what else to say....GO MINERS!! aight well peace out bitches..........

i just looked at her and realized how much i miss her,
i thought i was over her
i wanted to cry
i was helpless....
i was the perfect gentleman, i didnt even take it when i had the chance
now i wish i had
they say that if u do the right things then nothing can go wrong
well, thats a fucking lie....
nice guys ALWAYS finish last
dont be fooled by the things they say..
you will NEVER be truly happy
one night stands dont mean shit to me..
thats why she wasnt one of those....
i've never had one of those...
maybe its time i dont care anymore

fuck this
im out

ha ha maybe we should just give up because this nice guys finish last shit is a fucking lie!! well anyway ill update more later peace out!!

thats exactly how i feel right now..........i dont mean the miles part literally of course, its more of a metaphor

Dont Let Me Down....................

so lets c this this past week had been really awesome! i mean where should i start me and vivian were finally able to hang out. i dont think ive ever had so much fun man it was awesome! we not only hung out wednesday but also saturday. well wednesday picked her up at her house then just chilled there and met her parents, they seem really nice, i didnt feel like uncomfortable at all. after that went to go see the exorsism of emily rose, i felt bad i mean viv was really scared so i had to be there to make her feel better ha ha ha shes way 2 cute man! after that went to caliches for some custard ha ha yeah i had never been there before. it was a lot of fun, i got to know her a little better and i must say shes so damn awesome ahhh!! ha ha ha yeah sorry we talked and just hung out till i had to take her home. hmmmm yeah after that didnt do much until saturday when we went out again. well she really wanted to go see the corpse bride so we went, and i must say it was a really cute movie and i enjoyed it even more because of viv i swear man when im with her its as if nothing can go wrong i have so much fun! i know its sounds super corny but yeah thats how i feel. well anyway after that went to village in and ate some dessert yeah it was awesome! the more i hang out with her the more i like her, i swear time goes way to fast when we are hanging out. then after that went to vivs house and just hung out, it was so much fun and all we did was hang out on her couch and chill. yeah so things are going pretty well, i really like her and she feels the say way! ha ha well i guess thats about it peace out!!

hmmmmm well whats up guys its been a while yeah so ive been poor for over a weak but i have money now so its coo. so yeah guys well if i remember correctly i think well besides the entry about me being pissed i had written about this cute girl in my political science class. well needless to say i got the balls to ask for her number and well she gave it to me! and weave been talking since then! man this girl is awesome we still havent hung out but we will soon, this wednesday to be exact so we shall see how that goes! :D hmmmmm well i dunno what else to write about and i have to go clean my room now is ill update later peace out..........

yeah so im having a major breakdown today......fuck life! thats all i have to say..........

Yeah so hmmmmm im really gonna try to update this thing more...well anyway i really havent been up to much just same old school, work and the band. i think im doing fairly well in school ha ha its kind of funny cause i keep running into all my girl buddies ha ha not that i mind if you know what i mean ha ha. well anyway i met this new girl in my history class, shes really cute! oh yeah! ha ha hopefully ill get to talk to her alot more, oh and im on the verge of asking this girl vivian in my political science class for her number but i dunno i always feel like a dumbass asking for them :$ girls usually just give them to me so yeah wish me luck guys! hmmm well yeah i didnt do much yesterday, after work i kind of just came home and doze off ha ha. hmmmm today went to go watch the 40 year old virgin..it was really funny, then after that went to go eat at the dog pound and gamed it a little at my friend adrians. yeah well i dunno what else to say so i guess thats it im out peace..........

well hmmm lets c i really havent been up to much work sucked ass friday, we had like 12 servers on and i didnt make any money. plus i had my first complaint ever, from so black guy big surprise there huh? well yeah anyway like he would fuck up and blame it on me. for example he would as for a drink and he wouldnt tell me he wanted it virgin so he would get all pissed when he got it and it had alcohol. he did that a couple more times with a salad and the food, needless to say after a while i just stopped caring so yeah sue me. after that me and chris went and bought a 12 pack od bud and drank it up at his crib, good times good times ha ha. on saturday i made pretty good money plus ashley was working. shes this cute new blond server i mean shes a bit chunkier than i usually like but damn ha ha ha. she seems a bit slutty though or i dunno maybe shes just craving attention or is just a big flirt or maybe just into me. like for example shes gone up to me 2ce and told me about how she got bbq sause on her boob or something. and then like she showed me how she goes up to her table at her other job hooters ha ha ha. oh and like she was looking for a cup but there werent any clean, so i got her one because i washed a couple cause i needed some 2 and like she went up to me, came close to kissing range, like her face was maybe like an inch away from my face and said thanks. shes gotten that close to me twice. oh and today she wanted me to tie her apron because it came undone or someone untied it or something and needless to say i was touching her ass because she was moving around 2 much ha ha yeah shes damn slutty. well anyway yesterday after work i went to alberts house and had a couple of beers with most of the roma crew, it was chill i had a pretty good time but i took of like a little before 2 because i was tired. today was an alright day at work but i wont get into it right now ha ha so yeah well i guess thats about it for today so peace out..........

edit: im fucking pissed right now i got in this huge ass fight with my mom. she took my phone which i fucking pay and she took off with my aunt to the movies. she better give it back fuck man that pisses me off so much!!

well yesterday sucked so much, i didnt make any money and one of my good friends from work left yesterday. good luck steph! ill miss you! so work hard and dont do anything i wouldnt do....wait let me rephrase that ha ha dont do anything stupid and take care of yourself! so yeah ill miss her. well anyway today was a pretty chill day at school, we really didnt do much in my political science class. all the professor did was talk about an article we read about 2 men stranded on a boat with a boy, which in turn the 2 men killed and ate the boy because they thought they werent gonna get rescued anytime soon which ironically they got rescued the day after doing this. in my engineering class we messed around with autocad; man its such an awesome program! i cant wait till i really learn how to use it! so yeah after that went to the union and played some soul caliber II then went to cal. meh it was ok which reminds me i have 2 do my h/w ha ha :$ oh guess what? i bought season 2 of the oc!! oh yeah im so happy! i love having money sometimes ha ha ha! well i guess thats about it for today ill update later peace out..........